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I found a broken jar of your paper stars,
spilled out on the floor, spilling out the door.
And you said to throw them out, you didn't have a single doubt
the past was weighing you down, against all the new things you had found.
I was a bit concerned about what you had learned,
'cause I am a creature of the past and this new you could not last.
And you told me I was wrong, you and I would last long.
The weeks were only days when we had nothing to say.
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Sick with sentiment that Advent brought
Silvery-blue ornaments hang from the rooftop
Of a fortress of plastic and sheets
When I close my door, you won't see me.
Backseat contemplations in the car
The rain is coming down so hard
That I can't see past the foggy windows
And I put on my headphones
December fears made for troubling years
On the verge of change and the verge of tears
Christmas break won't last long
And when the new year comes, I'll go back to where I belong
And where I belong is as far as I can get from you
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My stomach's twisting into knots and making mats
You can cut them out but I make no guarantee they won't just come back
I can't handle this, my hands are shaking too badly
You look down, there I am, just so clearly unhappy
with the decisions that they're making.
I can taste the bile rising in the back of my throat.
I always linger, no, I'm not ready to go.
I would've stood here through rain or snow.
They always told me I was doing it for the show.
My eyes are watery and always prone to floods
I built up a dam but it didn't do too much.
They never let me watch, I only see the results
I still see you sometimes but you don't speak to me anymore,
you're always sparring.
I can taste the bile rising in the back of my throat.
I always linger, no, I'm not ready to go.
I would've stood here through rain or snow.
They always told me I was doing it for the show.
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Caffeine withdrawal and dark circles
Eyes adjusting to the dark
Wide awake at three AM
Head ringing like an alarm
Street lamps illuminate the scene outside my window
And it all looks so dreary now
Back at home, I bet you're still wondering how
Things got this way
Tearing unevenly
Still can't seem to sleep
Lungs are burning for
A release
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When it rains, I watch it fall, it pounds against the roof.
You can hear me through the walls - the only time I speak the truth.
Talking through my teeth, you won't see that side of me.
The part that leaves me at unease is what I've come to abhor.
When it rains, I watch it fall, it pounds against the roof.
You can hear me through the walls - the only time I speak the truth.
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The ice got thinner and thicker 'til it finally melted,
'cause you changed your name and left the country, left me stranded.
Now that the ice is gone, I can finally see the water crystal clear.
It's dark and troubled, full of sediment and your tears.
And it's the resentment that creeps in slow.
It's been too long since I was completely on my own.
And I'm getting better at this, watching you all alone.
And it's the resentment that creeps in slow,
but you would never know.
Until you escaped this town,
'cause you were the one letting me down.
And it's the resentment that creeps in slow,
but you would never know
Until you escaped this town,
'cause you were the one letting me down.
'cause you were the one letting me down.
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I take a breath and tell myself I'm gonna be okay
You don't have to know you're lying to say it
I still see us every day
Behind my eyes
Why should we have to let this die?
There's not a cloud in the sky tonight to block their view
I counted three but there's only one and two now
You said you didn't know how
When you still see us every day
But I'll never see it the same way
I should just give up
I can't keep up the fight for you
Three years and I can't even begin to express my situation
With just us two or three
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Now I'm not gonna refer to you by name
But the story's still the same
If you come across this in a little while, you can take the blame
I don't even feel ashamed anymore
I spent three years of my life thinking I would fix you
I used to think that we were stuck together like glue
And as the sun sets on September, did you feel the same way too?
I never really had a clue
All the words that we speak will never be received
But they still linger, buried down underneath
And all I ever really wanted was a friend
I should've known we'd never stick it out 'til the end
I made plans that you'd come back
But when I had to leave it wasn't fiction, but fact
All you ever had to do was let me know
If you really, really wanted to go
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I was watching you
Through the window
You didn't see me, though
You'll never know
And I swallowed the
blood in my mouth
Because every time we speak
you see a little bit more of me
I'm sorry
Where does it cease to work?
And I hate all that I've put you through lately
But that's no apology
And you hate me, you can hate me
I won't mind a bit, I don't mind it
If that makes it easy, then go ahead
I won't mind a bit, I won't mind it
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Deconstructed Company's first mini-album, released 9/21/2015.
Tracklisting:
1 - Broken Jar
2 - Advent IV
3 - Sparring
4 - Withdrawl
5 - Talking Through My Teeth
6 - Resentment Creeps In Slow
7 - Two or Three
8 - September
9 - Easy
10 - Again (bonus track)
released September 21, 2015
